The Tide

my life seems to be made up of three lines.
the first; being relationships
the second; being music
the third; being school

line one:
is seeming bleak. bleaker everyday. my ability to catch a fly is about as good as a newborns ability to catch a fly.
im beginning to doubt if i can even handle it all. or do i just want something.

line two:
seems stupidly perfect.

line three:
seems to be going very average, im just scraping through everything.

in greyscale

where to start off, is hard to decide. There are so many things racing through my mind, it's almost like i am at a complete stand-still and everything else is just speeding past in blurs.

musically, i listen to bands like "the fray" and "anberlin" and wonder how they grab these lyrics, right from within. I think i need to really branch out from my own stereo-type and start thinking about what is really important.

in general, life is going somewhat smoother than it ever used to. Though the same obsticle im always faced with just stays there. Supressing it feels better. But i think it's about time i actually pulled myself up, and stopped thinking that this obsticle. Is the end.

"as it gets too hard to push my legs and race for air, staying in one place seems only fair" - paper and planes

that line pretty much describes my outlook. I don't push myself to find my escape or solution. So i'm going to try my best to change this.

-Steve